Part Time Artist Full Time Dreamer
I always wonder if it’s a universal thought among artists, that we all wish we could do this full-time. If you are or can, you’re a vision and I applaud you; but it’s definitely my dream. I dream about it every single day, and I’m not even being dramatic. Literally .. every single day. Along with the thought itself, I’m constantly planning my 5 - 10 year goals to see how I can make this happen within that time frame. I feel like I’m close … really close! Is it so bad to want to create art, make sick connections and friends and inspire others to do the same?!
My 30’s have been incredibly revolutionary and life changing, my best years yet (lol relax your only 31). It’s true though! I feel like I truly came into myself, do fun things I want to do with less anxiety (thanks meds luv u), create meaningful art with purpose and all surrounded by the best and supportive people. They say you tend to live your 20’s in your 30’s and it’s better, they aren’t lying.
Finding your true self is the strangest and best feeling, but it also makes doing things you aren’t passionate about or don’t really want to do, so fucking difficult. In my 20’s I was this super young and ambitious, career focused gym girly, who was afraid to fuck everything up and needed to look perfect, be perfect and do perfect everything. My 30’s are all about working hard at my job and doing a damn good job then going home and forgetting about it until the next morning at 8:30AM. Coming home to my other full-time job; my art, and putting my everything into that. All while having fun from time to time and having a harmonious work - life balance, where work is ONLY 8:30 until the end of the work day, no later.
My life (including my people), my happiness, my mental health and my art are my number one priority now. I go for brisk walks at night, indulge in delicious foods when my body asks for it, go to concerts, spend time with my people and just live my best fucking life. 2019 me doesn’t know this girl I’ve become. But she’d like her a lot :)